This morning I woke up with a whole new outlook. I wasn't necessarily in 'pain' or anything but just the fact that my bladder and whole female parts constantly hurt I was determined I don't want to deal with it anymore. I'm tired of it and I want my body back to being normal. I want to be able to enjoy my husband and children, enjoy going out, enjoy the normal things in life that I just can't lately. So I decided that I would tell my doctor that if he'd do a c-section tomorrow I'd do it. I just want it over. I know the end of pregnancy is tough and sometimes seems to take forever as it is but with all the added crap I've been dealing with I'm so over it.
I was at my doctor office for a long time. His nurse was real nice. I was surprised when he walked in to find a younger doctor (he looks older in his picture online). I was all ready to go with my page long of questions, concerns and complaints. I shed tears. I let him know what is going on and how I'm feeling. He listened. He didn't rush me on, he didn't tsk me or anything. Wonderful! I got the Group B Strep test done and he checked if I have a yeast infection. Sure enough. Funny (or not) thing is when I mentioned my symptoms to the other Dr. last week she said it sounded like one but didn't even check!!! So who knows how long I've been dealing with this now! No surprise though since I've been on antibiotics for at least 3 weeks.
Ok, so here are my list of issues (besides the 'normal' pregnancy things):
Bladder infection (maybe its cured with the antibiotics though)
Yeast infection
Kidney Stones
Stint
Very anemic
I have an antibiotic for the bladder issues, new medicine for the yeast problem, iron pills and of course my pain meds. What, I ask you, is next???
Well, I have an appointment with a urologist on Friday. We'll discuss what can be done with the stones and when. I'm hoping that maybe they'll be able to take care of it when I'm in the hospital.
Monday I go to a different doctor who will do an amnio and ultrasound to see how developed the baby is. If the baby is developed well I can schedule a c-section for Tuesday. This is not the route I planned to go (and maybe by then the baby will come on her own or I'll change my mind) but like I stated above I am so sick of it all. Of course I want the baby's best interests and want to make sure she'll be ok if delivered early. I really didn't want another c-sect. and the idea of an amnio freaks me out so I'll just be praying in the meantime that God intervenes in a huge way! Otherwise I may be holding my baby next week!
On a totally different note, I've been searching for a baby book. They are SO expensive! I didn't want to pay $20 for one! And I couldn't find any that could be for boy or girl- it was either pink or blue. Tonight I stopped at TJ Maxx just to check if they had any. Only girl ones, but I looked at the price- $5.99!!!! I decided to get it and just wait to write in it- can't beat that price! I figured everything else I have is girl I may as well just get a girl baby book too;)
Well, I need to fill out pre-admission papers and make a list of phone calls I have to make tomorrow. Please pray that Zach and I make the best and wisest decision in this all and that we follow the Lord's leading. I don't want to be selfish in this and think only of myself. Which I'm not, I am very concerned about how these medicines I keep taking repeatedly could affect my baby. Zach is too which is why he's been saying for awhile now that I should just get the c-sect. Maybe God is slowly nudging me that way for some reason I don't know about. I don't know. Just pray for us as we seek God in this.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Decisions, Decisions...
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Jamie, I think your body will let you know what is best. Like I said today when we talked, maybe if the amnio comes back that everything would be a'ok--maybe your body will tell you to stick it out a week or more. But I am so RELIVED that you were guided to a wonderful doctor who took the time with you and listened. I had tears in my eyes knowing that you have someone that is seeking the best for you and your little girl.
I am so glad that you found a baby book for an awesome deal!! I love finding those wonderful hidden treasures!
Love ya girlie!!! God will lead you to the right path, whatever that may be.
To think you could be holding her in less than a week! It's a decision I'm sure your not making lightly.
Remember to consider the fact that 2 sections will make you ineligible for VBACS in many doctors eyes.
Praying for you, a tough decision. I don't regret doing a second C-Section I trusted my doctors judgment on both. I do feel somewhat left out because I more than likely will never experience a vaginal birth. BUT because mine were scheduled it wasn't that hard to recover. A lot of choices but its YOUR choice to make. Only you (well and God of course;-) know what is best. Thank goodness you have a doctor you like now:-)
Praying for you Jamie. You do what is best for you. I would recommend that you research to see the effects of more than one c-section. One thing I would like to warn you about, is that the risk of needing a hysterectomy increases to a 1 in 220 chance, when having more than one c-section.May God guide you towards His Will for you and baby girl. Big hugs!
Wow! First I read Rebecca's news and now yours! I better get those baby things finished! LOL
You've got some big decisions to make, I hope everything goes well and God eases your fears, pains, and frustrations as he guides in the right direction.
Wow on all of those medical issues!! You poor thing! Holy camole! Enough is enough already! Hope the meds make you feel better!
I'll be praying for you Jamie!
You have had a really rough time of it...I'm just hoping things go well for you whatever the final decision may be. I'll be thinking of you guys...
Praise God that you found a new doctor to hear your concerns and help you feel better.
I'll be praying for you to make the decision that is best for you guys. I know that whatever the decision you make, God will take care of you regardless.
I agree though, please do your research. One more week of gritting through the pain(although I definately understand) might be worth not spending a week in the NICU, or having to come home for a few nights without your baby.
Im hoping baby will just come on her own so the decision wont have to be made!
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