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That's how I'm still feeling. I finally gave in and have been taking my pain meds but I wonder if it even is helping because my back still hurts. It certainly isn't the pain I was having before I went to the hospital, but its still miserable. I could barely eat my dinner because of the pain. All I've tried to do lately is lay around, but I also had to do laundry as we were running out of clothes. The minute I move I feel like I have to pee, even if I just went. And when I do it kinda burns/tingles and is miserable. I can't imagine feeling like this for 2 more months, it is really miserable. I feel like I can't properly take care of the kiddos because I just don't want to do anything to make me in more pain. I managed to cook dinner tonight but once I cleaned up I was in soooo much pain I was about in tears. The TV has once again become a baby-sitter in our family. I wonder how I will even manage to go anywhere feeling this way...all I want to do is stay home.




I hate being this way. I feel like everything is in disarray. Our lives have been turned upside down for some time now, with the move and all. I was looking forward to getting back to normal routines and all, but that doesn't seem to be happening. Maybe one day we can gain some normalcy again...I know it sure would help my mood!!!