Happy 2nd birthday Precious Child

Two years ago today I lost our precious baby. This day 1 year ago was Malachi's due date. To think our precious Malachi would be 1. To think that its already been 2 years since I lost the other baby. I wanted to write a poem or something but lack of sleep and intensity of pain has kept me from it. So I will share this with you:




Happy Birthday my precious baby!!!! We miss you and can't wait to meet you!

Baby, I just want to meet you!

Dear Abby,
First I want to say I hope you really are a girl because we refer to you as Abby. We're buying pinks and purples and I wouldn't want to dress my boy in those colors;) Maybe we will get a chance to find out for sure before you are born. I will be quite shocked if you come out and they declare you a boy!

I am so anxious to meet you. This afternoon on the way home from church I envisioned your tiny body wrapped in a blanket and sleeping in my arms. I imagine your tiny fingers as they try to grasp at the air. I picture you snuggled up close to me as I nurse you, both of us eventually falling asleep together. I can't wait to see your sweet little face, to kiss those cheeks and hold you close. I love to feel your kicks and movements within. You certainly can be active, and it is fun to watch the different shapes my belly can take!

I am so thankful for you, that God has blessed our family with a new baby to love, nurture, raise and hold. I'm so thankful that He has held you tight and kept you safe despite things happening to Mommy's body. I'm anxious to meet you and not quite sure I want to wait 8 more weeks to do so! Mommy loves you, precious babe!