Thursday, February 28, 2008

And I leave you for the weekend with these...



For some reason I had to rescan them and now it works. I couldn't upload them anywhere, although I was able to email them. It was really weird. I'm off tomorrow to the Above Rubies retreat. You all know I've been waiting for this for some time! I just hope I can last the weekend without getting sick! A happy weekend to you all!
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Following in her mother's footsteps?

I sure hope not! When I was a girl I was so boy crazy! I remember from early elementary school until the time I got married I was so wanting male companionship. There was always some guy that I liked, it seemed. I always thought it was because I wasn't as close to my dad as I wanted to be and that I was trying to find that through boys (my social worker coming out in me). Well, Princess has been talking about the Preacher's son for some time now. She doesn't even know the boy, besides his name! She is 7, will be 8 at the end of March and in 2nd grade! I think this boy is in 5th grade but I'm not certain! I often hear her talking to Little Man about him. Apparently she had written the boy a note and sent Little Man on a mission to deliver it (thanks to my baby-sitter for disclosing this information to me). Of course, Little Man is even younger than Princess so what must this boy have thought with these two little kids coming up to him with a note? And I can imagine that Little Man told the boy what it said! Thankfully the boy didn't take it, he said he didn't want it. Princess threw it away (poor girl wonder if her heart was broken). When I asked her what it said she said she wrote 'I love you. I want to marry you.' Girl, you are way to young to think of marrying. You will meet many boys by the time you are of marriageable age. Yet I hear from other friends this is 'normal' for girls! I suppose if I look back at myself I was the same way, but I don't consider myself 'normal' (ha). Will there be a time when she looks at boys and thinks, "Ew, they have germs" or will she be like mama and like those cute little boys?

More Ultrasound Pics

Sorry I didn't get around to posting yesterday. I was not feeling well at all by the time I got home from the doctors! It was a miserable day!

I didn't think the guy was going to do the ultrasound at first. He said he'd noticed I'd had one on Thursday. I told him that my doctor just wanted to make sure there was a heartbeat and he said that was pretty much all he was going to do. I would have been ticked if he didn't do one- my doctor told me to come back and it would have been a waste of gas! Then I asked him about a 3D ultrasound (hey I wasn't going to waste my gas)! So he actually did one. Of course the baby looks like a little alien or peanut still but it was still neat. So here are the pictures, or not...for some reason they will NOT load! I keep getting an error message and don't know how to fix the problem. UUUUUGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Monday, February 25, 2008

Those Wonderful Pregnancy Dreams

They just won't leave me! A few nights ago I had a dream about one of our neighbors. I don't know this guy but I've seen him in passing. Well, he drove by our house in his truck and yelled some profanity at my husband. Zach, in turn, flipped the guy off. He came in and later felt pretty guilty so went down to the guy's house to apologize and soon the men were fast friends. The guy's wife or mother (not sure who she was, she was older and a bit haggish looking) soon tried to befriend me but she annoyed me and was so weird! Fast forward and for some reason I'm at my Grandma's house with the whole family (and my 50 something year old uncle has like 2 year old kids)! I'm not sure if we lived there or were just staying there but I went to bed and who was in the bed with Zach but this man and lady! I was so mad that these 'nasty' people were sleeping with us and Zach couldn't understand why!

Saturday night I had a dream that I was at the Copper Country Mall back home (I was shopping with Princess). I saw this one family from our church and was talking to them. Sheli was going to get her hair done. Well, at the end of the dream we were all walking out at the same time and I met up with them and we were chatting walking to our cars (though mine was on the other side of the parking lot). For some reason we were at the back of the lot past all the cars and all of a sudden there were police cars and an ambulance. This short man was all wrapped up in like an ace bandage, apparently dead. I remember Sheli saying she was a doctor and asking the cop, "Is that Gary Manis" to which the cop replied it was. I was wondering at this point who on earth Gary Manis was (and why do I still remember his name???) when I looked at there was a moving type truck that belonged to Gary Manis. It had some picture on the side, said his name and said something about him being a healer or something (I don't think he was a good healer). It was so weird! And why do I still remember this name? Finally I looked online and found this picture of a trucker named Gary Manis! Weird!

I know I had a couple of weird dreams last night too but don't remember the details. I think something about there being pounding on my door or something and I couldn't wake up to save myself! Who knows what will be in store tonight! I don't remember having this vivid of dreams before, although I know I have. I just don't remember remembering so many details! Crazy (but good) hormones.

Hmmm

Well I had a pretty busy weekend. Friday night we went out to dinner at a really nice Italian restaurant in town. We got to eat outside and besides the gnats it was wonderful. Only thing is the food didn't settle well so I feel I kinda wasted money!

Saturday I went to a baby shower for a good friend of mine. I took Princess along and she really enjoyed herself! This is my friend's first baby and I'm so excited for her! I'm glad I'll still be here when the baby is born so I can see her.

Yesterday we of course had church and Awana. I have to admit that I'm looking forward to not doing Awana anymore when we move. I'm sure there are churches there that have the program but I'm really just not wanting our family to be involved. Sometimes it seems like my kids only want to go to play the games. When I ask them what they learned about the Bible they don't know, although today Princess did tell me what they talked about last night. They get so hyped up on sugar, it interferes with Sunday dinner and Little Man never gets signed off on all of his verses. It is very frustrating when you work with your child, they say their verses, you leave a note saying what they've done and they get signed on only 2 verses! Then they want a prize from the prize box but can't get one because they've only done 2 verses and were supposed to do 3 when in fact he knew about 4 or 5 more pages than what he did! What's up with that?

I have been doing house hunting online. The houses there are so expensive! I don't have many requirements but I do want something that will comfortably fit our expanding family! I've looked at some houses outside of the town also, which may be cheaper in the long run, but Zach really doesn't want much of a commute and I don't want that either. I want to be near things and not have to waste gas to go grocery shopping or to the library or whatever.

Well I better close off for now. The two older ones are supposed to be working on their math but are fooling around with each other instead. I also need to attempt to cook dinner (first time in a long time). I'm not feeling the greatest since I did get sick earlier so hopefully I can handle it! I'll post tomorrow on how my ultrasound goes!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Girl's Day Out

Today we had a field trip for our homeschool group. The whole family was supposed to go but I could tell Zach wasn't really interested and the boys have been coughing a bit so it was just Princess and I. We went to a local hospital. It was wonderful! They showed us parts of the ER, Rehab Services and Labor & Delivery. It wasn't a quick thing either- it lasted awhile. They really took their time and were thorough. Princess' favorite part was the 'pool' in Rehab Services. She was surprised that there was a pool/hot tub in a hospital! My favorite was the hyperberic chambers. Gosh, I think I'd freak out if I had to sit in one of those things for 2 hours. They look so small and isolated! We actually saw people in them. This particular hospital has wonderful birthing rooms but the thing I didn't like was that they move you to a different room after you have the baby. I'd rather stay in the nice room, although I'm not sure what the others look like. I'm really hoping the hospital I'll deliver at has nice rooms (I did read that 11 rooms have whirlpool tubs). After our tour a few of us went down and ate in the cafeteria. The food was so good! I had a grilled chicken sandwich with cheese, lettuce and tomatoes. Mmmm. And I also bought fruit. I have been on this huge health kick (when I can eat). The thought of chocolate and pop makes me want to throw up (weird for me).

After our lunch Princess and I headed to the mall. I had some clothes to exchange for one of the boys and I had a gift card I wanted to put to good use. Well, I ended up going into Payless instead of just staying in JcPenney. Bad move;) I fell in love with these shoes I tried on (I cannot find them online but they're American Eagle brown Empire Mary Janes). They were SO comfortable. Then I saw its BOGO (buy 1 get one 1/2 off) so I bought myself another pair that I really liked. I don't remember the last time I bought myself something! Well, I take that back as I didn't really buy them. I used a check my mom sent to buy Little Man some clothes;) I'll pay him back, Mom! We headed back to JCP and I bought myself two shirts with my gift card. Off to get a movie for tonight (Martian Child) and an Orange Cream Slush from Sonic and it was time to come home!

This is the first time I've gone out and done something in a long time! Of course I go to church, doctor appointments, etc but I haven't done anything in forever. It sure felt good to get out and do something! And to spoil myself a bit too;) And considering how much everything came to I really didn't spend money on anything (it was my mom's money from the check and gift card;) )That's always a bonus!

So now its time for you to go out and try on the shoes I fell in love with! I bet you'll fall in love too! It feels like you don't even have shoes on!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

165 BPMs

Today I had my first OB appointment. I was nervous about it. First of all I didn't want the exam done since I just had one done in January (the day I found out I was pregnant). I was worried they'd get on me about it, especially considering I wouldn't be seeing my regular doctor. But he came in with the NP and said it wasn't necessary to have that done again, thankfully. So she just checked my heart, breathing, lungs and asked a few questions. Then they took me to another room to get a quick ultrasound to make sure there's a heartbeat. It seemed like it took forever to get that ultrasound started as I lay on that table nervously awaiting the results. And I was in the same room I'd been in when they couldn't detect a heartbeat on Malachi, so that also was going through my mind. But before I knew it I could see my tiny baby on the screen! And they immediately saw the heartbeat, which measured 165 bpm's!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!! It is so reassuring! Here are the pictures the doctor gave me- the top one is of the baby. You can vaguely see the arms and legs forming and you can even see the yolk sac! The bottom is the picture of them checking the heartbeat. I can't wait to see what Tuesday brings when I go in for a more in depth ultrasound!!!

Two annoying things right now

First of all we got our cable bill. It was up from $65 to $93!!! I knew we'd had a '6 month special' but didn't know it would go up so much. You see when we moved into this house we decided to get cable TV in addition to our internet. So they gave us a special. Well, its been 6 months so the special ended. I called to see about getting a reduced rate again. We have faithfully paid our bill every month for 3 1/2 years! When we had only internet I think our bill was about $20-30. You would think that after being such a faithful customer that they'd reduce rates a bit. Ugh, it really irritates me. So it looks like we'll be getting rid of our cable (I just hope we still have those bunny ears lying around so we can get American Idol).

The other annoying thing? Pencils. Doesn't that sound silly? You know those fancy pencils that have cute designs on them? The ones the kids love? They do NOT sharpen! I tell you those yellow #2 pencils are so much better- at least they sharpen! I must have sat here for 10 minutes trying to sharpen one of Princess' brand new pencils. I had to quit or the thing would have been a stub! Stupid pencils!

Can you tell I'm pregnant? Such stupid irritations;) Well the other thing that is irritating me at this moment is that my children are not listening to me and doing their school work so off to supervise. Oh and I'm also frustrated at the stupid spell check not working. So that's more than 2 annoying things...sue me;)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

I Have a Confession

I have a new addiction. American Idol. I never understood what all the hype was about over that show so when the new season began I told myself I was going to see what was so great about it. Well I am hooked. Of course it gives me something to do anyway since I really feel like doing nothing but laying on the couch, especially at that time of night. So this week there is a lot of TV watching going on for me. I think I even got Zach a bit addicted (sorry hon).

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Busy, Sick and Tired

Zach's dad flew in on Friday and spent the long weekend with us. We had a good visit. I was on the couch for a majority of it but we were able to do a few things. The guys went to shoot Zach's gun on Saturday. We also went to see Columbus' ship, the Nina. It was really neat. I was surprised at how small it is. I was wearing a sweatshirt from the college I went to and while in line the ticket guy asked if I went there. Turns out he did too and he's from that town, although he is much younger. It seems like every time I wear my college paraphenalia somebody asks me about it and has gone there as well. And it is NOT a big college at all! On the other hand, I often wonder if I should be on that show What Not to Wear. It has been how many years since I graduated from college and I'm still wearing clothes signifying I went there???


Princess talked Grandpa's ear off while he was here. Grandpa did all of the cooking. I felt terrible and told him a few times how bad I felt that he was doing so much but he understood and it also gave him something to do (and he enjoyed it). We grilled quite a bit, which we hadn't done in a LONG time and it was delicious! And of course Princess cried when we dropped him off at the airport this morning. And wouldn't you know that now that Daddy is gone back to work and Grandpa is gone these children are being so disobedient. It is very frustrating for a mom who just wants to lay on the couch! I did manage to do some school with them already though.

Speaking of school, we're so behind (as far as I'm concerned). I hadn't done much for weeks with feeling so crummy. Little Man finally got back into his phonics today! I hope I can attempt to have us mostly finished before we move in June.
On to the move...here are some of the details. We are moving to Ames, Iowa. Zach will be working at Iowa State University in the ROTC office. We'll be there for 4 years. We leave here June 18. At first I was quite shocked about it but I am really, really excited. Ames is noted as being the second best small U.S. city. It looks like a nice college town. I thought there'd be no trees and such but it looks beautiful there. And we'll be nearer to home, family and friends! You can't beat that! The only thing I'm not looking forward to is that we'll have to either rent or buy a house. I was really looking forward to living in military housing again! Oh and I'm praying our daughter will be here by the time we move so we don't have to pay extra adoption fees to get another homestudy and all done.
This morning Cuddly Boy told me he wants a baby sister. A little bit later he asked when his baby sister will be here;) It was pretty cute! Of course Princess wants a sister too, but Little Man is rooting for another brother. I don't care as long as I have a healthy baby! I had a dream last week that I was in labor and delivered a baby (not sure if it was a boy or girl). But since then I've had a couple of nightmares. I try not to let the fear creep in but it is hard. I have an appointment on Thursday and then next Tuesday I have an ultrasound. As exciting as that all sounds I'm a bit nervous. I keep recalling the last time I lay on the table with the doctor using the doppler, not finding a heartbeat. I so don't want that to be the case this time. And I'm certain it won't be but again there's a little fear there.

Now for a ton of pictures...

I forgot to mention that we bought a trampoline about a month ago. The children love it and ask to go on it every day!

Princess got her hair cut. It looks so much better! The scabs on her head are from her dad scrubbing a tattoo off of her head! Ouch! That's why tattoos don't go on foreheads, dad!
Here we have Cuddly Boy being some sort of Power Ranger/Superman. He certainly cracks me up!

Here is the Nina.

Grandpa and the kiddos. Not sure who the kid in the red shirt is!
He's so silly!
Handsome boy!
Cuties!
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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Animal ER

Today I was an Animal Doctor. These were my poor patients:
Lion had a gaping hole in his neck. I think he must have played too roughly with his friend Panther. Brown Ballerina Bear's head was completely off. She must have been practicing her ballet and taken quite the tumble. Although her head is completely stitched on it is a bit slanted to the side. And some sick perpetrator stuck silly putty to the poor puppy's leg which needed to be cut off. Then I had to stitch up the hole in his leg. Poor puppy will never walk the same again. All patients are now off happily playing with their owners, although puppy will soon be getting a nice bath.
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Memory of a Precious Boy

Today marks one year since I found out my precious Malachi was no longer alive. I remember that day as though it were yesterday. Princess was using the doppler to help the nurse find the heartbeat but they couldn't find it. Finally the nurse thought she'd found it but when the midwife came in she couldn't locate it either. I just thought it was a fluke thing, it seemed like just days before that we saw our babe happily playing in my womb on an ultrasound. That was not to be the case though. The ultrasound that day showed that our dear boy had passed on. I was shocked. Devastated. Although this is not the day that marks Malachi's 'birth' or whatever you want to call it, it is a day I will never forget.

I originally wanted to go to the cemetary today but seeing as I'm dealing with such severe morning sickness that is not to happen. We did go on Sunday, however. As we were driving home from church one of my favorite songs came on. It is Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone). The hymn was sung at Malachi's funeral so now it has such a whole different meaning in my life. This song is a bit different and based on the movie. Here are the lyrics that really struck me on Sunday as I mourned the loss of my little boy:

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
Of course all of the lyrics really get to me but somehow these words really made me sob on this day. My baby is free. He is not bound by chains. He has never had to endure the sin and sadness of the world, rather he was taken to the streets paved with gold and carried along by his Creator. What a blessed boy he is! To be with Jesus face to face! And to think that he is up there with his brother or sister playing at the feet of Jesus brings me such joy! Sure I mourn my babies and wonder what life would be like if they'd lived. But God knew that these precious children needed to be taken to heaven and not dealt the blows of the world. So while I think about my precious baby today and allow the tears to stream down my face I am also mindful of how God has worked to touch our lives through Malachi's short one. And I praise my Jesus for giving us a son we will get to meet in heaven, another brother for my children, a chance to carry a baby for such a short time.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

A New Place to Lie His Head


The other night while I was in the midst of being sick Zach checked to make sure Cuddly boy wasn't on the stairs. He does not stay in his own bed but rather comes downstairs often. I hadn't heard him that night, but this is where he fell asleep. It was hilarious! And I hope the video works too...that is the funniest of all!
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Speaking of lying our heads somewhere....we will be lying ours in Iowa in only 4 short months! Yikes! I'm excited though- I have been ready to leave here for quite some time now!

Monday, February 11, 2008

5 Weird Things

I have been tagged by Missy and I'm finally getting around to it. I have been doing much of nothing lately because I feel so sick. My house is falling apart. But here ya have it, 5 weird things about me (I think I've done this before but I'm too lazy to look).

1. I am still a mama's girl. I talk to her every day, sometimes more than once a day. Probably due to the fact that I was an only child and for so long it was only mom and I. Besides God and my husband she is my best friend and I only pray that Princess and I develop a relationship like my mom and I have.

2. I have always wanted a pet monkey. I think my children come close enough;)

3. I have never been drunk. The most alcohol I've probably ever consumed was when I was a child and my dad would give me sips of his beer.

4. Sometimes I am afraid of the dark. Not necessarily the dark, but I'm afraid a mouse or roach will crawl on me while sleeping since we've had too many close encounters. Sometimes I swear I hear mouse scratching noises;)

5. I think laminating things is a fun thing to do. I love the way they turn out when they're done.

Ok so I'm supposed to pick 5 people. I have no idea which of you to pick, so pick yourselves and humor me.

PS to last post...

We are NOT moving to a military base. This will be another special duty assignment. Which is good, then Zach won't be deployed! And remember on our list of choices to go to were Illinois, Ohio, Tennessee and Washington so it is none of those...

The more I think on it the more excited I am. I will be nearer to some friends and family and that is so cool. We won't be extremely far from larger cities. Still stumped?

A Possible Move Afterall

So, it looks like we may actually move this summer. Zach heard that he's tenatively been selected for a job somewhere. I don't know what to think about it. It is another one of those states that I think I'd never want to live in, just like North Dakota and Mississippi. Of course we go where the Lord wants us but its hard to imagine living here. To me it reeks of farm fields and tornadoes. Where is it you ask? Well that is the fun part. You all get to guess. And if I told you you cannot guess and ruin it! I don't have a prize for the winner, I'm just not up to something like that- sorry. But I'm curious to see what you all come up with. The good thing is we'll be closer to family, although still a drive not nearly as long! So, take a guess...

Friday, February 08, 2008

Pregnancy Bliss

Or not. I can't sleep. It is like I lie down at night and I'm tired yet my mind never shuts down. It goes over what I watched on TV or read or something. All these meaningless images just flying through my mind when I should be sleeping. I've never had this with a pregnancy before. I suppose I could drink some tea before bed but I'd probably just throw it up. Zach is home today and I tried to nap but it didn't work. I could hear some neighbors music, revving cars, pounding and the TV downstairs. It is so annoying. Now when I'm here alone with my munchkins I can put the TV on and lay down and nap no problem.

Yesterday was my worst day so far. I must have thrown up about 4 times, and that is with hardly any food in me. Miserable. Today is better. I forced myself to get up as we had a Valentine party with our homeschool group and I didn't want us to miss out on it. So I just kept munching on things there and stayed seated as much as possible. At least I haven't puked yet today!

I had the weirdest dream last night. So I must sleep at some point. I think usually after like 3 or 4 am I sleep the best. Anyway, I was in college and in my old dorm room. Rebecca was my roommate. I must have been married because I was pregnant. I went to the bathroom and I had two udders like a cow, only they looked like long nip*les hanging down. I FREAKED out! Then I started bleeding. So Rebecca and I began walking to the hospital and I was trying to call Zach. I hadn't heard from him in a few days and wasn't sure where he was or lived, although he was going to the same college. I got a hold of him and he said he'd meet us at the hospital. Then I must have woke up. Weird. Freaky. I blame it on the hormones! I'm so thankful for another baby growing in me but it is so hard to deal with when I feel so miserable, even though I know its a good thing!

Oh and thanks for all the love from the 28 comments you left me!!! That was awesome!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

My Daily Funnies

We've been watching the news a lot in our house. My children have heard all the hype about 'Super Tuesday' and Little Man has been asking about it and what it is. This morning he says, "Yeah, its Super Tuesday and we get to go to Pump It Up!" It was so funny! As if he really understands what Super Tuesday is all about!

We went to lunch with friends after our play time. While eating I said something about Princess' hair being dirty blonde. She said, "Uh, Mom my hair is NOT dirty blonde. I wash it every night in the shower!" My friend and I got a good laugh out of that one!

Cuddly boy hasn't said much funny out of the ordinary today but he's worn out from playing this morning and awfully cuddly. I love it!

Monday, February 04, 2008

What's Happening to Me?

I watched pretty much the entire Superbowl last night, besides maybe about 5 minutes when I bathed the boys. Now I normally don't watch football and I normally don't care about the Superbowl unless its the Packers. But I couldn't stand all the hype that the Patriots were getting from everybody for their oh so perfect season...ahem I say that because they're cheaters. I only know a bit here and there from my football announcer, I mean guru, husband. But I couldn't stand that those cheaters were actually allowed to play in the Superbowl. So I was rooting hard for the Giants. I'm sure I made my hubby proud to be watching a whole football game AND cheering! Needless to say I'm glad a team that played fair won. They played a good game. And it just goes to show that when you want to cheat what goes around comes around. Sorry I'm not very sympathetic to you Patriot fans (and my best friend is one of them).

I am finally feeling a bit better. I'm almost wondering if I had a touch of the flu with how awful I felt for a few days there. Zach took off of work on Friday and it was so beneficial. It wasn't until Saturday afternoon that I started to feel a bit more like myself. Sure I still have my nauseous moments but nothing at all like it was. Today the temps are in the 70s so the kiddos and I picked up some lunch and met friends at the park. It was a welcome change from being cooped up in the house for 4-5 days, although it was a bit breezier than I thought it'd be.

We found out on Friday that Zach's BOP got denied. BOP is base of preference. You put on a list the bases you want to go to and submit it. All got rejected (two in Washington state, one in Illinois, one in Ohio and one in Tennessee). I'm a bit ticked about it, but of course I know we'll go where God wants us. He did apply for a job at Notre' Dame awhile back and may find out about that this week. I don't really want him to get it because I'd really like to live on/near a base and not worry about buying or renting a house. But it is only about 9 hours from home so that would be a huge plus. I know we'll go where the Lord sends us but I just want to move. After awhile I just get an itch to move and I've been itchin' for a long time! Oh and Zach can't apply for BOP to those particular bases again for 3 months! Such is life in the military!

Um and can I gripe and say that I'm sick of the spellcheck not working. Anybody else have this problem? Ever since their outage last week mine is NOT working. So now I need to go through and reread my post...my house needs to be cleaned terribly so I'm off to do that once I'm done.

Friday, February 01, 2008

They're Growing Up

Princess opted to stay home with Mom while Dad and the boys went grocery shopping. She knew she would have to vacuum the floors and finish up her math, yet she stayed home anyway. When she was vacuuming she asked, "Mom, when I'm done can I watch 'What Not to Wear'?" She cracked me up! What kind of almost 8 year old asks to watch that show!?!? And we honestly don't watch it that often, but I think when we were at my Mom's in Michigan we watched it a bit.
Little Man is sporting a new look tonight:

He lost his first tooth!

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And Cuddly Boy...well today while I watched 'A Baby Story' he said, "When your baby comes it will sleep in your bed and I'll have to sleep in my bed?" Yes that WILL be the case- the boy will be sleeping in his bed by then!

I was just flipping through the channels and guess what???
Extreme Makeover Home Edition is in Mobile- only 45 minutes away!!!! Oh I wish I felt better so I could go and check it out!