Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Spilling beans

I have some beans to spill. I really wanted to keep it a secret longer but people are finding out so I figure I may as well let you know. I'm going to post it here before I facebook it (not sure when I'll announce it on facebook) so please keep it quiet on facebook!

We are going to have another baby!!!! I am shocked, ecstatic, shocked, excited, shocked, thankful, did I mention shocked!? I'm 6 weeks today due about November 3. I found out Friday night.

When I was out shopping Friday night I bought a test. I think I get obsessed with taking them! I honestly did not think I was pregnant, so I'm really not sure why I bought the test. Back in Feb. I had gotten what I thought was a 'light' period that was a bit earlier than what I expected and just not 'normal' (then again they haven't been too normal). So I assumed it was just a weird period, but at the same time had a nagging thought that maybe it was implantation or something. Also, I've never before gotten pregnant while still nursing. I know its not a sure form of 'birth control' but its worked for me in the past.

Not like we were trying to use it as a form of birth control. We're just like 'if it happens, it happens'. We believe God controls the womb and He is the Giver of Life. For a few months I'd kept having baby dreams, but every month was not pregnant. I hate when 'getting pregnant' consumes your thoughts and one night when Zach was gone I had a really good 'God time'. I remember asking God to take away any baby thoughts if He didn't plan that for me right now. I was completely content either way, to have another baby now or not. I know it all lies in His hands. So, the next day when I started that light bleeding I chuckled to myself thinking how God was showing me now was not the time. Little did I know...

Fast forward to this past Friday night. I got home from shopping and took the test. Zach and the 3 older kids were at the movies, so he had no idea I'd bought it. I took it, turned to wash my hands, glanced at it and already saw a visible + sign. I had to read the paper to see if I was reading it correctly because I didn't believe it! I was so tripped up, I called my friend Angie just flipping out! "Oh my goodness!!! You're not going to believe what I'm looking at!!! Oh my!!!" I was freaking out! Excitement and shock just took over! I honestly did not expect to see that + sign! It was so cool to call her first and share with her! I remember when she'd done pretty much the same thing to me! So, she knew before Zach even knew.

Then I texted him a picture of the test and asked him to pick up another. I later heard him driving up and met him at the door. He didn't get the text! So, he checked it and was like, "What? You're pregnant? How did that happen?" LOL Duh I wonder! So he ran right out to get another test and that too showed up positive right away. We were in shock. We're still in shock I think!

I wasn't going to say anything for awhile. I know how people will react. They'll think we're crazy. They'll wonder why. They'll worry. They think our hands are 'full enough'. They won't be happy. They won't say 'Congratulations'. It's a new LIFE!?!? Why can't people be happy for that??? It's such a shame! This is why I didn't want to say anything for awhile. Plus, I think about my friends (quite a few of them) who desire a baby sooooo badly and are just unable to have one. I know how much they're happy for us, yet how much it hurts them. And I can't help but feel bad, if that makes sense. Needless to say, I don't live for other people and I don't live for myself. I live for God and put my trust in Him. Obviously God wants to bless us with another and He'll provide the strength, stamina, etc to raise another! Its all a matter of trust. I trust in God. I live for God and I will submit to God. I praise Him for the blessing of another baby!

It is crazy to think this is my 7th pregnancy, my 5th baby!!! Please pray for the baby. Pray for me to have peace and to eat healthy! The kids are all excited and they all say they hope its another girl! They're so funny!

12 comments:

Becki said...

Passing time while Abby sits here next to me doing her math...decided to check the blogs I read....so excited to see your post! Congratulations Jamie! What a wonderful blessing :)

WildCAT said...

Congratulations again! I'm super excited for you! =)

I am OK said...

YIPPPEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to tell Scott! Congrats! In heaven your family is going to need an entire hemisphere it is getting so big! That is so just so wonderful. Great Job!

momanna98 said...

How awesome! I totally understand about feeling bad about getting pregnant. I know some people who can't or have a hard time having babies. I feel guilty, kind of. And then also, I feel like since I get pregnant so easily, I should have baby after baby because some people can't. But then, I would be insane if I did that. I, too, obsess about being pregnant. I think about it every month. I wish I didn't! I wish I could just relax about it. And these are the crazy thoughts that run around in my head all the time. :-)

Amie said...

I just saw it on Facebook, so I had to come see if there were more details here! :)

I just learned not to even worry about what other people think, or expect them to say positive things. The only thing that really bothers me is when they say negative things right in front of my kids.

Amie said...

bty, Congrats again!!

Kim said...

Well I'm a little late to this new exciting news as I read it first on FB. That is totally cool how you found out. It so exciting when you really didnt expect it. DOnt even worry or think what people will think. Its not their life, and we all know you and how much you love children, god and always had a plan to have a big family. Im so Happy for you guys. Prayers will be w/ you.

Wethyb said...

Awww, congrats!!! So exciting and here's to a healthy and speedy pregnancy!!!

Becca said...

Don't worry about what others think.....why people think they have the right to pass judgment is beyond me. Just remember who won't be lonely later in life with your big happy family. Congrats!!! Your news made my day!

DDK23 said...

Congrats! Happy for you!

Sherry said...

Oh Jamie, I was so excited for you guys but got a bit sad when I read this post. Don't worry about what others think ~ everyone knows that you guys planned on having a large family and it's really nobody's business how many children you have. I hope you have a happy but uneventful, healthy pregnancy. Congrats to you all!!
Sherry Strack

Angie said...

Awww! I was so excited to be the 1st to be called!!! You have become a sister to me in our years of friendship & I was happy to be there to share this AMAZING moment with you (even if on a phone, hundreds of miles away!).

Congrat's Jamie! You are a Wonderful & Beautiful Mommy.

Always here for you, all of my Love!
Angie