I'm really trying to not freak out. Our finances are such a mess. We've been so broke the past couple of months. Zach has needed tires for his car so got two with the last paycheck and he still needs two more! Christmas is coming up. We're only going to be able to spend $50 on each child this year, which in some ways seems like a lot of money but considering how expensive everything is it's not much. And I know Christmas is more than presents, but I hate not being able to afford to give my children things, ya know? Then yesterday we got our statement for our what our new payment will be now that our taxes are kicking in. It is not pretty, folks. It's almost double of what we're currently paying. Zach wonders why I worry and says he doesn't worry at all. He also doesn't do the bills! So please pray for us. Pray for wisdom as I really somehow need to grasp what to do with our money- how to stretch it better. I've even considered doing childcare in my home or something but I seriously don't know how I would do that! I know we get a pay raise in January but I doubt it will be much. UGH, I hate dealing with money!!! On the other hand, there have been instances where God has really been blessing us at the same time! He is so good and I know He'll never leave us destitute or hungry. I know He is trying to grow my trust in Him even more, but boy it is stretching in SO many ways!