Sunday, August 06, 2006

Loss

On Thursday I went to my first doctor's appointment. I thought I was about 10-13 weeks. He did an ultrasound and it showed I was only 7. He also did an internal one and couldn't pinpoint a heartbeat, but he said that isn't abnormal for being only 7 weeks and asked me to come back in a week. He told me to call if I had any bleeding or anything. Friday I started to bleed. Not a lot, but enough to freak me out. Then it pretty much stopped until this morning. Today I have dealt with bleeding, cramping, etc. I was still holding on to hope that maybe it was just from something else, that maybe my baby was still ok. But, due to the recent happenings of my body I know that I am losing my baby. I am mad. Sad. Can't understand why this is happening. It is one of those things where you think it will never happen to you, although you know it is so common. You hear people's stories all the time. So here I sit waiting for it all to pass. Please keep us in your prayers. It is not easy for Zach either. While we know our little one is in the Lord's hands it is hard to know we will never hold this dear child in our arms this side of heaven. And that hurts. Even if I've carried this child for a few short weeks. It hurts.

11 comments:

Marla said...

I am SO SORRY!!! I wish I could give you a big hug! May the Lord bless you and keep you during this time. He loves you, your little one, and your family with an everlasting love. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Amie said...

I'm so sorry, I was so hoping you just weren't as far along as you thought. We will be praying for you and the whole family.

Christine said...

I am so sorry for you. May God console you, dear friend. You are in my prayers.

DDK23 said...

I am so sorry. I know you must be really hurting right now. My prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. You're in my prayers.
Loriann

Canaan said...

I just sent you an email. I am here...whatever you need.

Choppzs said...

Oh goodness Jamie, I am so sorry! I wont say I understand because I have never been through that. But I do know how much you love a child even before they are born into this world! You all are in my prayers!!

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear this sweetie! We'll be praying for you and Zach.

Love,
Christy

myboys9802 said...

I'm so sorry honey.
Have you talked with the doctor again, is he going to see you today?

HUGS

Jodie said...

Aw Jamie, I'm so sorry! I can only imagine how much it does hurt. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers.

razorbackmama said...

Oh Jamie I'm just now seeing this. I'm so sorry!!!!!