Thursday, October 14, 2010

Strong Enough

It is so weird.  I've been going through old posts to add to my new blog.  While I try not to read things, I do catch bits and pieces so I know what is appropriate for that blog.  Well, so many of them sound the same as they do now!  I experienced the same things with each baby lost as I do now.  It just seems crazy to me. 

I told Zach I want to do something special on my 'due date', though at this point I haven't come up with anything concrete.  I do have ideas though.  Do you have any thoughts or ideas for me?  I was just talking to my mom today about the holidays.  Here I'm so set on trying to get through my 'due date' that I can't even think about the approaching holidays.  But today I was thinking about how hard Thanksgiving will be...and a fleeting thought of Christmas.  My mom is thinking about possibly coming for Christmas.  I think that would be wonderful.  I think it would "help" me so much to have her here!  Nothing like a mama's company, right?  But, like I said I really can't even "go" there. 

I'm so very thankful I don't have to rely on my own strength to get through these times.  I'm so glad I have a Rock, Anchor, Fortress, Strong Tower that I can ran to!  Speaking of strength, these are the lyrics to Matthew West's new song 'Strong Enough'.  It couldn't really sum it up any better.  This is the story behind the song.  You can listen to this song here.

You must



You must think I'm strong


To give me what I'm going through






Well, forgive me


Forgive me if I'm wrong


But this looks like more than I can do


On my own






I know I'm not strong enough to be


everything that I'm supposed to be


I give up


I'm not strong enough


Hands of mercy won't you cover me


Lord right now I'm asking you to be


Strong enough


Strong enough


For the both of us






Well, maybe


Maybe that's the point


To reach the point of giving up






Cause when I'm finally


Finally at rock bottom


Well, that's when I start looking up


And reaching out






I know I'm not strong enough to be


Everything that I'm supposed to be


I give up


I'm not strong enough


Hands of mercy won't you cover me


Lord right now I'm asking you to be


Strong enough


Strong enough






Cause I'm broken


Down to nothing


But I'm still holding on to the one thing


You are God


and you are strong


When I am weak






I can do all things


Through Christ who gives me strength


And I don't have to be


Strong enough


Strong enough






I can do all things


Through Christ who gives me strength


And I don't have to be


Strong enough


Strong enough






Oh, yeah






I know I'm not strong enough to be


Everything that I'm supposed to be


I give up


I'm not strong enough


Hands of mercy won't you cover me


Lord right now I'm asking you to be


Strong enough


Strong enough


Strong enough

1 comment:

I am OK said...

The due date debate. We did nothing. It just didn't seem like we could yet celebrate a precious life, or morn one more day outwardly for such a short pregnancy - after all what would people think? Looking back that all seems so dumb now. We should have acknowledged life and loss, it may have marked the end of the journey or at least a break in all the heart ache. I hope you, Zach, and the kids have an opportunity to mark the occasion and truly do what is best for you, not based on what others might think.